Today is one of those days when I feel like running to my mother’s grave and hugging her batu nisan and sob my heart out. I am feeling very down dooby doo down down today… and I miss my mother SOOOOOOO MUCH.
I didn’t think my life would change as it did when she returned to Rahmatullah. My whole word turned upside down, topsy turvy… I was left to deal with a father who would CONDEMN me, just for protecting Allahyarhamha Mummy’s interest. After 51 years of being married to her, the long-suffering and patient wife who never ever stood up against him… he can’t even bring himself to honour her memory and legacy in the way that she deserves to be honoured.
Ma, I wish I could turn back time and I would never have left your side for even a second. I would have bled myself dry just to make you happy. I would have spent those last moments before you breathed your last begging your forgiveness and telling you how much I love you and what a wonderful mother you were to me. You were the bestest ever. So many people I met, even after your return to Rahmatullah…. they would tell me how wonderful you were. To know you was to love you, Ma… May Allah SWT Grant you the Highest Jannah. May the barzakh be a peaceful and cool abode for you.
I miss you. I love you.
