Biawak Idup

Two of Wes‘ friends/colleagues from his office overseas are visiting KL. They came down from a conference in Bangkok and want to spend a few days in KL and then go to Langkawi. My whole afternoon was wasted just tending to the narcissist’s need to please others.

Kawan dia yang datang, aku pulak yang tak pepasal terpaksa bersusah-payah nak kena find out itu ini, book itu ini. (Update: And bila deyols dah sampai, boleh pulak macam cast aspersions kata dia dapat 5-star hotel which is far cheaper than the one we booked. Ada bezalah woii.. and in the first place, I don’t think the R*yale Chul*n Damansara is of 5-star standard but wotever… 🤷🏻‍♀️ *shrug*)

Wes insisted on paying for their 5-star hotel stay, the one near our house. Dia ingat murah² kot, but didn’t realise the cheap prices he saw on Book*ng.c*m did not include breakfast, and breakfast is rather expensive as compared to at the Royale Chulan. Masalah dengan dia ni, banyak assume sana-sini. Amendaaalah. On top of all that, he didn’t realise that the prices quoted on the booking site are all “++”, which means 10% service charge and 6% sales tax is not included in the price. Bila dah dicongak² balik baru terlopong 😲

He had spoken to Ustadh Shafiq earlier in the day and he invited Ustadh sometime next week, before the last 10 nights of Ramadhan starts. Ustadh graciously accepted his invitation, Alhamdulillah. Later in the evening, when I asked Wes whether I should make a reservation for TWO at the restaurant he had chosen for him and Ustadh, he told me… no, wait first… coz the list has now expanded… to EIGHT.

Now it was my turn to terlopong 😲… sambil 🤦🏻‍♀️ *facepalm*. Aku nak pergi supermarket and buy the (expensive) groceries that he eats pun aku terpaksa berkira each RM100, and he nicely invites so many people to an iftar that he can ill-afford. (Buffet price RM100 per person at the restaurant he chose). In the first place, can they even eat to justify the cost of the buffet… no one can eat much by this point of Ramadhan, our stomachs have shrunk so much. (Alhamdulillah for that lah kan…) Si Harambae Opportunist yang aku menyampah tu pun diajaknya. 😤

Bersepah biawak idup dalam dunia ni…

Maaflah, daripada ikhlas jadi tak ikhlas… sebab dah menjadi beban. Wes Alasdair Coen CONSTANTLY and PERPETUALLY pushes me into this ‘zone’/situation and I am sick and tired of it. Dia tak rasalah bebannya, coz… he doesn’t pay a single sen for the expenditure of anything in this family. I am the one carrying everything. He even mentioned when I said why should you spend so much on the two friends coming to KL when we are going through hard times now, “Never mind lah, if I finish my money, I just ask you”. He said that with his usual snigger, but I know he wasn’t joking. Living with him for 30+ years has taught me that he doesn’t joke about these things.

Kata “honourable” sangat.. #DeathBeforeDishonour bagai… but asik mendesak duit daripada bini tu “honourable” sangat ke? Hamboiiii sedapnya. Aku ni mint money ke? Those days are long gone ya, pakcik… tapi kalau aku sebut kau pulak tak suka and will start to show me muka masam and treat me with your legendary manipulative cold silences.

I am T-I-R-E-D. Sometimes I wonder why am I still here *deep sigh*