The stepmum is going to perform umrah tomorrow. I was supposed to go with her and her group of mengaji friends but someone said, “Wait for me to come home, I’d like to go with you..” Hmmm yalah… always putting a spanner in the works. Waiting for him would mean I would need to fork out the cost of an entire umrah package for another person. And the way I travel for umrah, it would mean more than a pretty penny.
I am too damn old to rough things out. Everything aches, I need comfort… may the Lord Forgive me and my “excessive” needs. May the Lord provide sustenance and rizq to me to be able to afford all of my needs ~ from the smallest to the biggest, from the simplest to the most luxurious. Aameen.
I wanted to go see her and say goodbye after Maghrib just now but she said she was going to go out for an early birthday dinner for my youngest brother (which is the day after tomorrow). I will see her tomorrow morning subuh sepi’ee, انشاءالله , because I had already made the intention, the niyyah, to pass some money that I would like for her to give to the cleaners/workers in the Masjidil Haram and Masjid Nabawi on my behalf. It’s not the largest sum but it was something that my heart told me to do. Benda baik jangan kita biarkan, dak? We act on it… and may Allah SWT accept. Amen!